Here is a story of some back and forths I had with a Green Hope Farm friend who emailed us this week. Whenever I say Green Hope Farm friend, please know that it might be the first time or the fiftieth time I have connected with someone but always, it feels like you are friends. I say this because I want everyone reading this blog to feel included in my use of the word friend.
Here is a shortened version of this Green Hope Farm friend’s email request, shared with her permission.
” I would like Flower Essence custom mix for my healing business. I am a channel, teacher and healer. I have a small practice that I cannot get off the ground. When I sit in meditation, I can see and feel all the people I would like to help but it is like I am invisible as if there is something blocking me from reaching people and people reaching me. I feel this is the right path- but now, after so much struggle, I am starting to doubt. It seems like nothing works out- no opportunity presents itself. I need help. I want to be able to financially support myself with my spiritual gifts but perhaps I have a block about abundance. A lot of these issues feel really old. I am sure there is a lot I am not seeing- the Angels know more than I do and I would love their help with this mix.”
I felt very connected to this woman’s request as I have had many experiences of things not flowing and me wondering what I was doing wrong. I appreciated her deep vulnerability and felt connected to her through her sharing.
When I received Flower Essence suggestions from the Angels for her, I felt lifted up even more. As is so often the case, the Angels’ suggestions for her helped me too because, while the Essences were very practical in their support to connect her more deeply to potential clients, the suggestions also carried an energy that she was not doing anything wrong and that there were factors in play that had nothing to do with her gifts or her efforts- I found this comforting.
As I wrote down the list of Angel Essence suggestions, the Angels said to me, “Don’t equate purpose with outcome.” Later as I was mulling over this comment, they added, ‘Outcome does not define effort or value.”
These comments and the purposes of many of the Essences chosen suggested we might find it easier to be kind to ourselves if we really accepted that there are A LOT of factors beyond our control that explain why our efforts sometimes don’t go where we’d hoped. Karma is too simplistic a way of talking about this. Conversations of karma can devolve into “an eye for an eye” ideas about energy balancing that just make us feel shame and are only a small piece of the puzzle.
Maybe the notion of “good news, bad news, who knows?” better represents all this. After all, this phrase serves to remind us that there are a myriad number of reasons why somethings work out and some don’t AND that sometimes what looks like working out is not a positive but what looks like failure is actually a positive. For example, I started my speaking career on the same circuit as Carolyn Myss who went on to have an enormous career in the public eye. I am ever so grateful that is not how it worked out for me as I don’t think I have the electrical system to handle that kind of limelight. At the time I could have experienced her trajectory versus mine as a failure on my part, but I was just so relieved to not be speaking to larger and larger crowds that I could feel the grace in my circumstances and take to heart the Angels remarks that it simply wasn’t my path or the best direction for my life to go.
In all exchanges with the Angels, there is a feeling of love without judgment and the bottom line of them having our best interests at heart. The Essences in this healer’s mix encourage this same vibration. “Yes, we are going to give you some wonderful Flower Essence friends who can help with manifesting your dreams, but we are also going to give you support for feeling your wholeness no matter what does or doesn’t happen.”
All this reminded me of one of my most favorite dreams which I have described here before- In the dream, I examine a diorama that says “Molly’s Life” on it, and I realize all the pieces in the diorama cannot be moved. Then I notice that the diorama itself is being held up by a being I recognize as God. As the dream ends, God winks at me! I don’t mean to weigh in on the issue of fate here with that dream reference, but there was much about this mix that reminded me that FOR OUR OWN GOOD loving forces are managing our lives- our divine self, Angels, divinity itself- and that our effort is enough regardless of outcome- Outcome is in divinity’s wise hands, effort is in ours.
While I linked all the Angels’ Essences suggestions below to their definitions page on the website- all except Yellow Rose of Texas which doesn’t yet have its own page- I have also added some possible reasons why the Angels chose these Essences for this Green Hope Farm friend’s mix.
Turk’s Cap Cactus- This Essence helps people get us and puts us on their maps.
Inishbofin- This Green Hope Farm friend mentioned that this issue felt really old. Because Inishbofin helps us bring forward strengths from other incarnations, I feel like it might move forward her own momentum to solve the heart of her concerns whether it is to reframe her understanding of what she actually is doing or have her practice expand.
Spiddal- This one helps us see painful circumstances in this life or past lives from an empowered place of perspective and helps us release all lingering damage these circumstances might have caused.
Queen of the Night- I love how Queen of the Night acts like a flashlight to illuminate exactly what we need to see if we feel “in the dark.”
The Eight Garden- A powerhouse of manifestation- This garden helped get Green Hope Farm Flower Essences rolling, and its Essence keeps on helping with manifestation of all sorts.
Flow Free- You have heard me sing the praises of this one ad nauseum- but heck, it deserves the praise for helping keep our energy system flowing on every level. I lean on it to help me release shame and self criticism when I fall into a circumstance of assuming that “things going wrong” mean I am not enough. I AM ENOUGH!
Yellow Rose of Texas- This long time beloved Rose from the additional Essence list often comes to the fore to help us untangle a knot or problem. It is a joyous, wise and profound friend.
Belerephon of the Open Door- If a door needs to be opened, this is the one to reach for- a profound and unwaivering friend.
Box Briar- This one supports a release from old troubles when other approaches to the problems have failed to bring results.
Effort and Grace( described in the previous blog) – With this Essence begins the turn in the Angels’ suggestions as this one is all about doing our best, knowing this is all that we can do and then seeing the grace in whatever does or doesn’t happen.
Love it and Leave it- This is such a good one to pair with Effort and Grace as it reminds us to give up on outcomes as nothing defines us but God.
Carry Less- We view the world through filters that lead us to think we know what success looks like- well, I do anyways- and this one helps us release these filters so we can experience our situation with a lot less judgment and more clarity.
All Ego Contracts Null & Void- I read this quip recently where someone said, “I learned shame from other people then learned how to do it all on my own.” This one is another powerhouse for releasing all those negative judgments we lay on ourselves. It also helps us release ideas and rules we hold that no longer serve us but instead bind us to see ourselves, our situation or our course of action in limiting ways.
Fragrant Ladies Tresses- Helps us feel safe in letting go and letting God.
Nodding Ladies Tresses- Another untangler of knots, this Flower Essence helps us release ourselves from the mental, emotional, spiritual as well as physical knots that bind us.
Omey Island- Sometimes the natural course of things for our life is quiet, a time of being cut off from the hustle and bustle and plunged into a simpler rhythm- a place of being in the world but not of it. Accepting that this is alright and more aligned with our purpose than what we imagine our path can be a complex challenge. This Essence combination from this tidal island in Ireland helps us do this.
Here is a story about the task that Omey Island supports us with.
I was a very social person in my youth. Well into my twenties I had a pack of friends and was ever in a whirl of many social activities. I even managed to make my night out at a meditation class end in a very social time at a local soda fountain. I can remember the meditation teacher exhorting us each week not to go empty our full buckets of energy with a lot of socializing after class. We would tear out of there to our weekly gathering at the soda fountain laughing our heads off!
When I began Green Hope Farm I naturally made it a place bustling with people and gatherings. In those early years, the Angels also had me travel a lot and speak at many conferences about what we were doing here at the farm. Then abruptly, my inner guidance sent my life in a very different direction. After a time in which I was out on the road speaking each weekend for months on end, I received word that I was done with that and would be staying home.
It took me a very long time to understand exactly what the Angels guiding me meant by staying home. While the road trips stopped immediately, my suddenly quiet life became even more quiet over the years. Even the gardens became much quieter as the Angels asked us to close them to visitors. Of course, I have thought a lot about the whys of all of this, but I have no real answers. In surrendering to what we are asked to do there are no guarantees or necessarily any explanations, but my quiet life has taught me one thing for certain: nothing is unimportant.
In a world spinning so very fast with so many events packed in, we can think there is very little going on in a small simpler life. But living in a smaller life, I am aware how significant each encounter with another person, animal or Flower is. It makes me aware that we really have no idea the healing things we do. In a busy life, someone’s kindness to me might feel unimportant to them, but if it is my only trip off the farm that week, this person’s act of kindness is not unimportant to me.
I now am firmly convinced we will never know the most healing thing we ever did because we really have no idea what others may need or how we have helped them in simple ways we haven’t even thought were important. My pared down life made me experience this Green Hope Farm friend’s query about a Flower Essence for her healing practice as a healing gift to me. It made me feel she was doing much more healing work than she was aware of.
After all, her brave and vulnerable request for Flower Essences on this topic helped me, and she thought she was asking for my help!