Lose Mind Not Heart

During this stretch of things falling away, I have  doubled down on time spent with a quart jar of pink Flower Essence water at my side seeking guidance from “upstairs.”

No matter how confused and murky my own mind can get, like a bell ringing its pure note, the messages I receive day after day from the Beloveds here to support us all are so uplifting and encouraging.  There seem an infinite number of ways that Divinity can help us to keep going, and apparently I have needed a lot of them to navigate this last month!

Thank you again dear ones for your tireless love and many  messages encouraging me to Lose Mind Not Heart.

The Flower Essences that particularly seem to support us in our efforts to drop kick the mind in favor of the heart are the ones from the Venus Garden- These garden mandalas and their Flower Essences are always the Angels and Elementals’ main focus of each growing season-

Don’t Worry-Bee Happy and Loving What Is are two particularly helpful Essences in this effort to dismiss monkey mind and trust one’s heart and the unfolding path we are all on.

If you want to read the original description of Loving What Is from the Guidebook, I  have put it below.  I really love what a thorough job the Angels do in their description of this Essence to dismantle all our minds ideas about its own importance.

Sending you much love and encouragement to keep on keeping on! Here’s the description!


The 2007 Venus Garden Essence was called, “Loving What Is.”  It helps us live in our hearts.  This Essence offers a roadmap to move from the mind’s territory of judgment about ourselves and our lives to the heart’s territory of embracing our lives and ourselves with peaceful equanimity and joy.  If we know the way to our hearts already, it supports us to live there more of the time.  The heart is the place we can relish our lives despite the fact that they have not gone according to the mind’s plans or expectations.  This is why this Essence is called, “Loving What Is.”


Our culture puts the mind ahead of the heart.  This is because our culture is a construct of minds.  As a creation of minds, our culture believes in the mind’s authority and encourages us to keep our minds in charge of running our lives.  The culture encourages us to listen to whatever mind ideas are screaming loudest on any given day and judge our experiences as good, bad or ugly in relationship to these mind ideas.  No countenance is given to how mind ideas leave us suffering, because the mind really only cares about staying in control. To keep us in check, the culture constantly changes its collective mind standards.  If we are always running after the new mind ideas of the culture, we have less time to consider that maybe the mind, either our own or the collective mind of the culture, should not be in charge of driving our lives.  The collective mind of the culture and our individual minds have no interest in our happiness.  What they want more than anything is to stay in charge.

It is grace that mind standards can never be met for more than short tension filled periods of time.  This is because life is not a servant of the mind.  In those times when our lives do not conform to the collective mind or our individual mind’s ideas of what life should be, the door opens for us to abandon the hold the mind has on us.  This doorway is a blessing, not so much because it alters the abyss between mind ideas and reality, but because it encourages us to shift the place where our consciousness is seated from the always dissatisfied mind to the peaceful heart.  This Essence is to support us to shift our consciousness to the heart, the only place we can experience peace no matter what is happening in our lives.  We must make the decision to change our habit of living in our minds, a place of judgment and restless discontent, in favor of sinking into the heart’s place of unconditional loving acceptance of what life is.  “Loving What Is” will help us make the shift and help us to stay in the heart even as every construct of the culture calls us back to the mind’s territory of judgment.


What is the problem with the mind?

When the mind is given the reins to rule our lives, it rules from a database of contradiction and confusion.  This is because the mind is no more than a rag tag bundle of ideas collected from a myriad number of sources including childhood data collected from our family of origin.  The ideas we have collected are based on other people’s unique perceptions of reality as well as our own perceptions.  These ideas are always going to be in conflict with each other because no two people can see things the same way.  From the moment we are born, our minds collect conflicting perceptions.  Our fathers’ ideas conflict with our mothers’ worldview and that is just the beginning of the dissenting opinions we collect and call our minds.  No mind has any integrity. The mind is a body of information rife with conflicting ideas.

My mind would like me to belabor this point with lots of mind ideas.  My mind would love it if I did this, because the mind has no capacity to be in charge but wants to be in charge anyways.  It will use any idea in its database to keep itself in charge.  This means the mind has no hesitation to throw out new conflicting ideas if it feels us waver in our allegiance to it.  If we momentarily sink into the happiness of the heart and the mind feels its hold on us lessening, the mind will not hesitate to throw a grocery list of worrying, fearful, guilt laden, contradictory and unhappy thoughts into our consciousness in order to stay in charge.

To let our minds drive our lives is self-sabotage of the highest order.  No matter what rises up from our tangle of mind ideas as the right opinion of the day, it is always in conflict with other ideas we carry and therefore literally sets up a dynamic of constant inner conflict.  The mind, when given the role of running our lives, literally divides us from ourselves.

So what is the solution? As Einstein said, “The consciousness that created the problem can’t solve the problem.”  The solution to this dynamic lies outside of the minds that created the problem. The solution lies in the heart.   It is in the terrain of the heart that we can love what is, sink into a consciousness that is not in conflict with any other consciousness and therefore find the peace and harmony we seek. All hearts are kind and loving because the heart is an integrated part of all creation.  Few, if any, minds are kind and loving because the mind, by its very nature, is a hodgepodge of conflicting information warring with itself for dominion.  We will never find peace in our efforts to live according to our mind’s myriad ideas of the good life.  We will only find peace when we live in our hearts and discover its immense capacity to accept what is.

The shift to the heart opens us to love what is.  Being in the heart is not a process or a struggle.  It is the experience of love.  This is because the heart is the eternal and divine part of ourselves that knows its oneness with everything.  A life lived in the heart is the experience of what we were seeking all along, an experience of infinite love and peace.  The dynamic of this Essence supports us to no longer allow our minds’ to drive the show, to leap into the heart and to stay there long enough for the rewards of this choice to become self evident and we find the motivation to stay there of our own accord.  If we have settled into our hearts to some degree, this Essence supports us to abide there as we navigate a world working overtime to call us out from our centered place of joy.


When the mind is given the task of implementing the choices of the heart, it becomes an excellent tool for manifesting these choices.  This is the only role appropriate for the mind.


In January 2007, when planning the season’s gardens, the Angels told me that this Venus Garden would be, among other things, about water.  I spent time with the Angels figuring out which plants best represented the dynamic of water and was given a beautiful design that included juicy cucumbers, melons, parsley, nasturtiums, sweet peas and a White Lotus.  Seven glazed blue pots filled with Nasturtiums encircled the Lotus; each represented one of the seven seas.

The garden was easy to plant and very elegant in its early weeks.  When the Nasturtiums started their display, the garden became a veritable mass of Flowers.  The Angels asked me to leave various “volunteer” annuals including a mass of gorgeous deep blue Chinese Forget Me Nots and a big swatch of White Nigella.  How well these contrasted with the dizzying oranges, yellows, reds and creams of the Nasturtiums.

Oh my mind was so pleased with myself.  What a splashy garden!  How clever was I!

Then the flowering ground to a halt.  The Sweet Peas that had ringed the garden in abundant and fragrant blossom turned brown and died in the summer heat.  The Angels asked me to leave every crisp brown vine in place.  How my mind disliked this untidiness!  Then the Nasturtiums did what they do when put in good soil.  Their leaves got enormous and they stopped blooming.  Soon there was not a Nasturtium Flower in sight.   The garden looked as unimpressive as any I had ever planted.  When I was in my heart, I felt the peace of knowing all was well and the garden was serving something in some way.  But sometimes, I allowed the appearance of the garden to pull me off balance and back into my critical mind.

Then one day, very late in the summer, as I passed the garden with all its weeds, overgrown Nasturtiums and unflowering plants I burst into laughter.  Quite abruptly, I fell in love with the garden just the way it was.  As I rubbed against this garden in passing, its vibration had helped me fall out of my mind and into my heart.  I was so happy to have made such radical peace with the garden.  I was completely in love with this big brown weedy mess.  In that moment, I experienced the gift of this Essence to move us from mind to heart.  I knew there would be a lovely Essence born from this garden and that it would be about loving what is.


Why a connection to Water?

The Overlighting Deva of Water speaks, “ Water represents the territory of navigating life from the heart more fully than any other element.  This is because the flow of water has the least resistance to what is.  It may experience the constraint of other elements defining it as a pool or river, but it never experiences separation or boundaries, being completely malleable in its own structure. Within this construct of formlessness, it never rests in its movement towards the manifestation of oneness, pouring itself into union in seas and sky.  It is the perfect balance of loving what is while simultaneously moving towards a manifest oneness.”

After the Firestorms

This afternoon I was regaling the staff with funny stories from the early days here. I described the summer we opened the farm to the public because hundreds of people were showing anyways.  It was one of a number of  growing seasons when the produce and Flowers were oversized and abundant, and I thought I had licked the issue of insect infestations for all times. We were talking about all this because we’re looking at our labels and considering going “retro” back to designs from the early days.

It is hard for this dear young staff to imagine that hundreds and hundreds of people could arrive at the farm because they heard about us without cell phones, instagram or the internet.  It’s kind of hard for me to understand too, but I credit the Elementals who have always been timeless and gizmo free networkers. They knew I was sharing life at the farm and the Flower Essences because I was so darn grateful for how joyful and fun and meaningful my life was with them and the Angels as my partners and our joint creations the center of my daily life.

In the years before Green Hope Farm happened, there had been a litany of personal challenges for me, but when we moved here in the late 1980’s, there was a stretch when just about everything I tried to do blossomed and grew.  The bumper sticker on my car read, “Life’s a Joy and then you Ascend” and that said it all.  If I stuck a stick in the ground, it grew.  If I thought, “I wonder what it would be like to do this activity?”,  whatever I needed to do that activity fell into my lap.  Things went wrong but in funny ways.  I’m sure it was more complicated than this, but my memories of this time are wonderful and sweet.  My life was in the gardens and the gardens were glorious, filled as they were by Flowers, children, dogs, cats, and fairies.

Eventually this time passed and I entered a period in which people and places fell away from my life so fast and so unexpectedly that I could barely process it.  The garden lessons grew more complex as well.  The harvest was what I learned from navigating the complexities and losses.  Life became something I had to learn to savor in the middle of pain and suffering.  Like everyone else, I had to grow up.

Through the ups and downs, the Angels and Elementals remained ever ready to offer their wise counsel and life up my heart.  When I had a positive attitude, it was because I worked to see things this way, not because my world was all sunshine and roses.  Suffering can make a person more compassionate, or at least that’s been my experience.  I can be in the trenches with you all better, because most of my life I’ve been there with you.

Which brings me to this January.  WHEW! Did you all survive it intact?  What a whirlwind of stripping away whatever “needed to go.” (btw sometimes I’d really like to talk to the big guy about why exactly ALL this needs to go……) Maybe it is just that I am a Capricorn so all this stuff happening in my sign made it more intense, but gosh, some of your emails made me feel like I got off light and frankly, January was a disorienting series of losses for me.

Some things keep going strong- the love of the Flowers or as the staff goddesses call it, “Flower Power”, the presence of Divinity in all things, the seed catalogs that promise the return of Flowers after our long winter, HUMOR and LOVE.

Originally I was sitting down to write a blog about creativity, but somehow this morphed into thoughts about how creative times are often preceded by an emptying out or literal firestorms burning things to the ground.

In nature, fires lead to new growth in plants.  Wild raspberries grow gangbusters on burnt ground and wild blueberries need to be burned through to keep bearing strong.  I guess we’re more like berries than we might think.  Which leads me to the positive: After this winter time of contraction, loss and challenge, we can look forward to new life and new creative endeavors and their blossoming.  Stripped of more self definitions which we thought we needed, we can be open to rediscovering who we are without these labels or these things or people we thought we needed.

I remember when I was stopped in my tracks by my broken arms. Both times the breaks were many with plates, pins, and surgeries.  As I recovered, I could do very little but sit there, yet I felt whole. I felt like me.  Maybe as we experience the new parameters of our stripped down post January firestorms, we will find yet again the wholeness of who we still are and find wonderful creative, funny, joyful ways to express it.

And for me it begins with new garden plans.  I’m trying to grow celery for the first time.  How about you?

Fresh Photos from the Farm

Dear Friends,

I have moved the posting of frequent  photos of the farm from other social platforms to the home page of our website

I have many boring reasons for doing this, some technical ( it is after all me), some political (it is after all me)  and some emotional ( it is after all me)  but I will spare you yet another tedious rant.

Instead, please know that if you want to check in with what is going on in the gardens or greenhouse here, look to the home page of our website for fresh photos and a bit of news- The photo is just below the scrollbar on the right.

Love and Blessings to you all on this very very very cold day at the farm!

Flower Essences for Kindness as We Stumble

WOW! It’s a nutty time!

To put it more diplomatically  We seek new paradigms for living on our dear planet and living with each other, because we need them ASAP.  The old structures are imploding   are being yanked away don’t work, and like a toddler learning to take those first few steps without hand holding, we are lurching around, stumbling, banging into each other and in every way making the mistakes necessary to find a new way of being.

Much as I wish it wasn’t so, the stumbling is necessary. There is never any other way to learn than by trial and error, but this is particularly true now as we must find new ways of being without a lot of role models. The new paradigms are so different than anything that have gone before that the old problem solving tools are crap not much help. Yes, I’m talking about you, patriarchy.

In our toddlerhood there were hands to catch us as we took those first steps  or at least I hope so. And now, as we stumble towards a new way of being, we have never been less alone.  Divinity floods the planet with Light and Love, offering support unlike any time ever before. No exaggeration.  I meet new Angels every day that are here to help us all. So really, there ARE hands ready to hold us up, and we can feel this rock like support if we turn off our cell phones  go within and listen.

We all hope for kindness as we stumble, both inner kindness and kindness from everyone else, and we find this kindness by making kindness our choice and opening to become the Light and Love being showered upon us. Yeah, I know this sounds trite but really, if we all tried this….

We are going to mess up make many mistakes as we find new ways to live together harmoniously and new ways to take care of our ailing planet. The Light and Love of Divinity helps immeasurably, but we are still going to stumble.  May we find the courage and strength and perspective to be gentle towards ourselves and each other as we stumble.

Flowers show us how to soak up all this incoming Light and Love  and be kind. I never met a Flower that wasn’t actively kind. I have never walked by a wildflower in a meadow or visited with a Dandelion in a parking lot and found it rude or honking its horn. 

If you read my last blog you know I am  humbled by my unsuccessful efforts  trying not to backbite.  It occurred to me yesterday as I picked myself up from yet another situation in which I should have said nothing,  that I have never heard a Flower EVER say anything negative about another Flower. EVER.  That really amazed me. And I have talked to a lot of Flowers.  They don’t even interrupt each other.  Flowers have to live with each other and often cede territory to each other, yet they never diminish themselves with unkind behavior. No, I don’t think a Flower with an unpleasant fragrance counts.

All this makes me look to the Flowers more than ever.  Each day in this uncharted territory, I awake and seek out Flower friends to help show me the way. Each day, they shimmer and shine and tell me and all of you who connect with them, “Yes, you can make this leap. You are doing it.”  And when I stumble every day, ever hour every five minutes, they shower me with comforting love and kindness, help me dust myself off post stumble  and offer gentle encouragement how to be more kind to myself and others.

I want us all to succeed in the wobbly trip across this bewildering new territory on our toddler feet. It’s a fantastic gig to be here now but really hard. May we all be forgiving as we stumble into each other. May we all see the best in each other. May we all be as kind to each other as a bouquet of our favorite Flowers delivered to our door.

FLOWER ESSENCES FOR KINDNESS AS WE STUMBLE                    Yes, all Flowers help us with kindness but here are some single and combination Flower Essences that jumped at the chance to offer themselves today to you. Okay, so ALOT jumped at the chance to support you! No worries. They’ll be kind if you just say no thanks.

Seeing ourselves and others as the Angels see us versus as our personalities sees us: Through Angels’ Eyes, Eyes of Mary, Love Prevails, Love it and Leave it, Don’t Worry-Bee Happy

Finding a loving view of self and other that melts the cloud of unforgiveness hanging over us:: Buddleja, Peach, Meadowsweet, Hardhack

Release from habitual patterns of judgment: Carry Less, All Ego Contracts Null & Void, Wild Rose, Crab Apple

Release from shame spirals: Konigin von Danemark Rose

Kindness towards self: Heliotrope, Buddleja, Meadowsweet, Hardhack, Eyes of Mary

Listening to your own body with kindness: Hontanas

Finding the bead on love in difficult situations: Rose Campion, Wild Pink Morning Glory

Confidence that humanity is evolving in a matrix of eternal love: Climbing New Dawn Rose

Hearing each other in an new way and  with kindness: French Marigold

Self-acceptance and self love: Pine

Knowing your value even when no one seems to see you: True Wood Sorrel, Dwarf, Common Centaury

Knowing your sweetness is a strength not a weakness: Dwarf Common Centaury

Knowing only God defines you: Maple

Yup there really is Love and Divinity in everyone: Agnes Rose, Arbor Garden, Peach

Having a true accounting of your strengths: Maple, Cretan Viper Grass

Letting go of the niggling feeling you are not enough: Common Knapweed

Self-esteem for teenagers: Common Scurvygrass

Help to ease up on the self criticism so you open to receive more love: Meadowsweet, Pine

Finding your self-esteem after traumatic experiences: Fremont Pincushion

Validation that selfless actions of caretaking matter: Henbit Deadnettle

Letting go of self-loathing: All Ego Contracts Null & Void, Mary Queen of Scots Rose, Crab Apple,  Sneezeweed

No more playing those negative tapes: Pennyroyal

Knowing ourselves to have been born one with Divinity with our infinite imperishable worth never anything but a truth of this Divine oneness: The Flower Essences from Crete( listed in the Mediterranean collection)

Knowing your value beyond personality or cultural ideas of success: Ginger

Unwavering sense of your own value no matter who steps on you: Fremont Pincushion, Wintergreen

Knowing your own strength and worth as a woman: Wild Red Morning Glory, The Sacred Feminine, Pomegranate

Restoring self-worth after betrayal: Calliandra from Taiwan

Knowing you are enough: Common Knapweed

Moving through the world with both kindness and appropriateness: Alpine Forget-Me-Not

Living like a honeybee in equality, consensus, generosity, loving kindness and JOY: Hairy Thorny Broom

Support for those who live to love with a vast generosity of loving kindness: Pink Rock Rose

Finding the inner kindness to listen to your body with tenderness: Hontanas

Clear the heart of old hates and bitterness: Sow Thistle

Kindness to others no matter where they are on their spiritual path: Galicia, Rabanal

The strength to stay present in the face of other’s suffering: White Chestnut

PS Posted this yesterday but failed to mention a new Flower Essence combination  Enhancing Empathy that a lovely psychotherapist in Manhattan asked us to make to support open hearted kindness. This mix was the inspiration for this blog but heck, I stumbled and forgot!  I’m learning what matters is not that we stumble but that we pick ourselves up and keep going!

Flower Essences for “working clear, working immaculate”

At the New Year I received a message in a dream about “working clean, working immaculate”.  The message said that this was not about purifying the physical body but mentally working clean.

I’ve been thinking a lot about this message and what it means.

I am not sure I understand it, but I have some preliminary thoughts as well as objectives that I’d like to commit to more intently.  None of these are new issues, but I am grateful for the re-set button brought to us by the New Year that gives us all a chance to spiral through the same lessons in a more evolved way.

As always there are Flower Essences offering support for these challenges.  I’ve listed some after each topic.

#1. Not taking responsibility for other people’s behavior

In situations where I am uncomfortable with other people’s choices or choose to feel negatively impacted by them, I am renewing my efforts not to go into “fix it” mode.  The first day I was doubling down on my efforts to do this, a friend reminded me of the al anon maxim- “I didn’t cause this. I can’t control this. I can’t fix this.”

Some Flower Essences I find helpful for this include:

All Ego Contracts Null & Void– We may have been wired to take care of other people’s problems but that doesn’t mean we can’t rewire ourselves. I keep working with this Flower Essence mix  as I find new issues that need rewiring.

Eyes of Mary– This Flower Essence never fails to support me to detach with love from new situations where I need to learn how to do this.

The Letting Go Flower- Letting go is a lot bigger requirement in life than I ever imagined.

Carry Less- This Flower Essence mix is for cleaning up life times of the habit of doing too much for others.

Musk Thistle– The Angels have me take Musk Thistle daily.  It helps smooth energetic feathers when they are ruffled so we energetically regroup from big and small energetic kerfuffles.

#2 Slow down in my decision-making process so as to check in whether what I want to say or do is an impulse from my personality habits or actually grounded in a clear place of love.

When I get confused and fall into the habit bred into women to carry other people’s problems around with me as my problems, it’s a pressurized situation that leads me to want to blow off steam by “doing something.”

Nothing about modern life encourages us to do this, but I’m renewing my efforts to go inward to seek clarity before doing anything. This dream message leads me to double down on going inward.

If I am in some situation where someone wants an immediate answer, my personality response to this bullying is to appease and respond immediately. Over the years, I have practiced waiting until I get clear, but being immaculate about this feels more important than ever.  Discomfort from waiting to get clear is better than doing something that might not be the best course of action.

And as far as inner guidance goes, one of you emailed this week to say that you were continually surprised by how your Angelic guidance was so firm about not engaging with certain situations and people.  I emailed back that I felt the main word the Angels use with me is NO! 

In pausing to check in, I get help and wisdom from a spiritual support team with a lot more perspective and insight than me. Thank you Angels.  Your NOs are much appreciated. I also am grateful you are happy to say NO more than once about the same situation! 

To Hear the Angels Sing– Because we are one with the Angels, they are there for ALL of us.  This is their mix for hearing them and our heart felt guidance more clearly.

Grounding– Being fully present and grounded inevitably crisps up the clarity of our guidance.

Redwood– When anchored in the eternal, a lot drops away as not real.

Spiderwort– What matters and what doesn’t? This helps sort through the data.

Arbor Garden & Indian Pipe– We really can take the time to slow down, experience the abiding reality of peace and get clear and heart centered guidance.

Kirengeshoma– This gentle friend softly deepens our ability to know self and know our right path.

Los Arcos– When our guidance is different than conventional wisdom, this Camino beloved helps us find the bravery to go on alone

Puenta la Reina– Another Camino gem. This one helps us know who sees our value and can support our growth.

#3 Resist people’s efforts to get me to re-engage in a drama that I have recognized as not my drama.

All of the Essences I have already mentioned are helpful for this. To this list I add:

Horseradish– It’s possible to say no as many times as necessary, and Horseradish helps us do this politely but firmly- think of it as  dragon breath delivered with charm.

Verbena Bonariensis– This one helps air lifts us out before we get enmeshed again.

Mandrake– So what if we’ve been rooted in this dynamic for eons? Mandrake can help us pull ourselves loose once and for all.

 #4 Resist the worry that if I don’t do it, the planet will collapse.

Divinity can handle things without me.  I suspect a lot of the NOs I receive in guidance are to remind me of this i.e. Divinity has things under control and doesn’t need me to interfere.

Our Venus Garden Essences are all about tangibly feeling the Love and Grace of Divinity that is WITH US  AND HANDLING THINGS during this tumultuous time on our precious planet.

Recognizing Divinity is in charge is not a carte blanche to not help. It means doing what we are asked to do from our deepest heart centered place of guidance and then LETTING GO TO DIVINITY which has the rest well in hand.

From the Venus Garden Collection:

The New Sunflower Spiral– Yes, the planetary situation looks like a mess but so does the operating room in the middle of surgery, and we’re in the middle of a big operation.

Through Angels’ Eyes– The Angels share their vibrational confidence in us and in the big picture. I find this one so deeply reassuring, so calming- an Angel pep talk in a bottle

Equanimity– “If you meet life squarely, accepting its opposites with equanimity while carrying on your duties in a spirit of selfless love and service, you will not only come in tune with the Infinite, but you yourself will become the Infinite which you seek” Meher Baba

Effort & Grace– Encourages us to keep going in the mess of human relationships knowing our efforts elevate grace and grace elevates our efforts i.e. as I bumble along, thank goodness for grace!

Don’t Worry-Bee Happy– Worry never solved anything. Truth.

Loving What Is– Our minds are a muddle of half baked ideas which is why we have to keep returning to our heart source for true wisdom.

Love It and Leave It– Supports detachment from the unreal, the momentary, the fleeting so we can ground in the real of Divinity and Love.

From other Collections:

Rosa Mundi– Yeah, the spiritual life is no personality picnic, but it’s worth it.

Gorse– Hope is never lost.

Joe Pye Weed– Support for those of us who keep taking back God’s business into our own hands.

Fragrant Ladies Tresses– “I AM not so much a promise of how resolution will look, but I am a promise that resolution will arise.  I will support you to trust in the mighty forces than come to your aid when you give any situation or relationship to the Divine.” 

 #5 When I feel flooded or log jammed, I need to clear my electrical field. Negativity enters our electrical systems through four doorways: Fear Guilt, Doubt and Anger.  If I can track which door I have open and why it’s open, then I can remind myself of truths so that I can not only clear my field but close the door so no more negativity comes in through that door (at least until the next issue crops up).

Fear Door- There are a lot for this door- Here are a few:

Be Fearless– Yup the Angels felt so strongly about this that they composed a mix.

Allamanda from Taiwan– Fear door specifically helping us not to give our power away to fear vibration or allow childhood fears to run the show.  Loving, non-judgmental but strong support.

Old Blush China Rose– Fear door specifically fear for personal safety.

Chinese Knotweed & Coral Pink Rose– Fear door specifically fear of loss.

Scarlet Runner Bean-General contractor for dismantling fears. This one makes it easier to close the Fear door no matter the fear.

Guilt Door

Hyssop– Guilt door, good for dissolving the habit of guilt as well as specific guilts.

Doubt Door

Goldenrod– Doubt door for when others cause us to doubt ourselves.

Maple– Doubt door for self-doubt.

Star of Bethlehem– When we doubt all the pain and suffering of the spiritual path is worth it.

Anger Door

Outburst– Anger door for a variety of types of anger

Orange– Anger door specifically volatile issues like sexuality.

Four Door Support

Seaside Heliotrope– Helps close all four doorways when the topic is romantic partnership

Love Prevails– Another one for multiple door closings.

#6 A few months ago I received the request in my guidance to stop backbiting/gossiping/saying negative things about anyone else.

Let’s just say, I have found this one a BEAR! I fail a zillion times a day, but I feel this dream message was exhorting me to keep trying. So I will.

Let’s face it, when I speak ill of someone else, I don’t know what I’m talking about, AND it doesn’t help anyone. In fact, it hurts others, and it hurts me. Sometimes when I’m trying to not backbite, I feel like I act very weird, dodging and weaving through conversations. So what? I am weird.

Snapdragon– Don’t say it.

Royal Ponciana– Really.  Don’t say it. 

7# Kindness to self as I work on all this.

Konigin Von Danemark Rose– I learn through my errors so stop with the shame spirals.

Meadowsweet & Hardhack– I think of these two as a pair for bring us self kindness and a gentler view of self and others.

Heliotrope– It’s way past time to let go of our grudges against our precious self.

Golden Hedge Hyssop– No more shame that we are “too emotional” or “too much.”

Hontanas– Listening to our bodies with tenderness and compassion.

Crab Apple– Could anyone live up to the inner judge we sometimes have living inside us? I don’t think so! Time to fire that inner judge.

Pennyroyal– We really don’t have to replay the negative tapes anymore.

Ginger– Knowing our eternal worth.

Fremont Pincushion– Yeah, I am saying it again and so is this Flower Essence, we are Divinity in a sea of Divinity so lighten up on the self judgment!

As a community of Flowers, Angels, Nature Spirits, Dogs, Cats and even some People, Green Hope Farm can be a funny place……and I love telling you all about it!